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WATCH: Christine Blasey Ford’s full statement about Brett Kavanaugh allegations

WATCH: Christine Blasey Ford's full statement about Brett Kavanaugh allegations

PALO ALTO, Calif. —

Christine Blasey Ford, the lady accusing Supreme Courtroom nominee Brett Kavanaugh of sexual assault, learn her statement earlier than the Senate Judiciary Committee throughout a listening to on Thursday.

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It reads, partially, “I am here today not because I want to be. I am here because I believe it is my civic duty to tell you what happened to me while Brett Kavanaugh and I were in high school.”

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The full statement might be learn in its entirety under and right here and seen within the video above.

Written Testimony of Dr. Christine Blasey Ford
United States Senate Judiciary Committee
September 26, 2018

Chairman Grassley, Rating Member Feinstein, Members of the Committee. My identify is Christine Blasey Ford. I’m a Professor of Psychology at Palo Alto College and a Analysis Psychologist on the Stanford College Faculty of Drugs.

I used to be an undergraduate on the College of North Carolina and earned my diploma in Experimental Psychology in 1988. I acquired a Grasp’s diploma in 1991 in Medical Psychology from Pepperdine College. In 1996, I acquired a PhD in Instructional Psychology from the College of Southern California. I earned a Grasp’s diploma in Epidemiology from the Stanford College Faculty of Drugs in 2009.

I’ve been married to Russell Ford since 2002 and we’ve two youngsters.

I’m right here at the moment not as a result of I need to be. I’m terrified. I’m right here as a result of I consider it’s my civic obligation to inform you what occurred to me whereas Brett Kavanaugh and I have been in highschool. I’ve described the occasions publicly earlier than. I summarized them in my letter to Rating Member Feinstein, and once more in my letter to Chairman Grassley. I perceive and respect the significance of your listening to from me instantly about what occurred to me and the influence it has had on my life and on my household.

I grew up within the suburbs of Washington, D.C. I attended the Holton-Arms Faculty in Bethesda, Maryland, from 1980 to 1984. Holton-Arms is an all-girls faculty that opened in 1901. Throughout my time on the faculty, women at Holton-Arms steadily met and have become pleasant with boys from all-boys faculties within the space, together with Landon Faculty, Georgetown Prep, Gonzaga Excessive Faculty, nation golf equipment, and different locations the place youngsters and their households socialized. That is how I met Brett Kavanaugh, the boy who sexually assaulted me.

In my freshman and sophomore faculty years, once I was 14 and 15 years previous, my group of pals intersected with Brett and his associates for a brief time period. I had been pleasant with a classmate of Brett’s for a short while throughout my freshman yr, and it was by way of that connection that I attended quite a lot of events that Brett additionally attended. We didn’t know one another properly, however I knew him and he knew me. In the summertime of 1982, like most summers, I spent virtually daily on the Columbia Nation Membership in Chevy Chase, Maryland swimming and working towards diving.

One night that summer time, after a day of swimming on the membership, I attended a small gathering at a home within the Chevy Chase/Bethesda space. There have been 4 boys I keep in mind being there: Brett Kavanaugh, Mark Decide, P.J. Smyth, and one different boy whose identify I can’t recall. I keep in mind my good friend Leland Ingham attending. I don’t keep in mind all the particulars of how that gathering got here collectively, however like many who summer time, it was virtually certainly a spur of the second gathering. I actually want I might present detailed solutions to all the questions which were and can be requested about how I obtained to the get together, the place it happened, and so forth. I haven’t got all of the solutions, and I do not keep in mind as a lot as I want to. However the particulars about that night time that deliver me right here immediately are ones I’ll always remember. They’ve been seared into my reminiscence and have haunted me episodically as an grownup.

Once I received to the small gathering, individuals have been consuming beer in a small front room on the primary flooring of the home. I drank one beer that night. Brett and Mark have been visibly drunk. Early within the night, I went up a slender set of stairs main from the lounge to a second flooring to make use of the toilet. Once I obtained to the highest of the steps, I used to be pushed from behind right into a bed room. I could not see who pushed me. Brett and Mark got here into the bed room and locked the door behind them. There was music already enjoying within the bed room. It was turned up louder by both Brett or Mark as soon as we have been within the room. I used to be pushed onto the mattress and Brett received on prime of me. He started operating his palms over my physique and grinding his hips into me. I yelled, hoping somebody downstairs may hear me, and tried to get away from him, however his weight was heavy. Brett groped me and tried to take off my garments. He had a tough time as a result of he was so drunk, and since I used to be sporting a one-piece bathing go well with beneath my garments. I believed he was going to rape me. I attempted to yell for assist. Once I did, Brett put his hand over my mouth to cease me from screaming. This was what terrified me probably the most, and has had probably the most lasting impression on my life. It was onerous for me to breathe, and I assumed that Brett was by accident going to kill me. Each Brett and Mark have been drunkenly laughing in the course of the assault. They each appeared to be having a great time. Mark was urging Brett on, though at occasions he advised Brett to cease. A few occasions I made eye contact with Mark and thought he may attempt to assist me, however he didn’t.

Throughout this assault, Mark came to visit and jumped on the mattress twice whereas Brett was on prime of me. The final time he did this, we toppled over and Brett was not on prime of me. I used to be capable of rise up and run out of the room. Immediately throughout from the bed room was a small toilet. I ran inside the toilet and locked the door. I heard Brett and Mark depart the bed room laughing and loudly stroll down the slender stairs, pin-balling off the partitions on the best way down. I waited and when I didn’t hear them come again up the steps, I left the toilet, ran down the steps, by way of the lounge, and left the home. I keep in mind being on the road and feeling an unlimited sense of aid that I had escaped from the home and that Brett and Mark weren’t coming after me.

Brett’s assault on me drastically altered my life. For a really very long time, I used to be too afraid and ashamed to inform anybody the small print. I didn’t need to inform my mother and father that I, at age 15, was in a home with none mother and father current, consuming beer with boys. I attempted to persuade myself that as a result of Brett didn’t rape me, I ought to have the ability to transfer on and simply fake that it had by no means occurred. Through the years, I informed only a few buddies that I had this traumatic expertise. I advised my husband earlier than we have been married that I had skilled a sexual assault. I had by no means informed the small print to anybody till Might 2012, throughout a couples counseling session. The rationale this got here up in counseling is that my husband and I had accomplished an in depth rework of our house, and I insisted on a second entrance door, an concept that he and others disagreed with and couldn’t perceive. In explaining why I needed to have a second entrance door, I described the assault intimately. I recall saying that the boy who assaulted me might sometime be on the U.S. Supreme Courtroom and spoke a bit about his background. My husband recollects that I named my attacker as Brett Kavanaugh.

After that Might 2012 remedy session, I did my greatest to suppress reminiscences of the assault as a result of recounting the small print brought about me to relive the expertise, and induced panic assaults and nervousness. Sometimes I might talk about the assault in particular person remedy, however speaking about it prompted me to relive the trauma, so I attempted to not assume about it or talk about it. However through the years, I went by means of durations the place I assumed about Brett’s assault. I confided in some shut pals that I had an expertise with sexual assault. Sometimes I said that my assailant was a outstanding lawyer or decide however I didn’t use his identify. I don’t recall every individual I spoke to about Brett’s assault, and a few pals have jogged my memory of those conversations because the publication of The Washington Submit story on September 16, 2018. However till July 2018, I had by no means named Mr. Kavanaugh as my attacker outdoors of remedy.

This all modified in early July 2018. I noticed press reviews stating that Brett Kavanaugh was on the “short list” of potential Supreme Courtroom nominees. I assumed it was my civic obligation to relay the knowledge I had about Mr. Kavanaugh’s conduct in order that these contemplating his potential nomination would know about the assault.

On July 6, 2018, I had a way of urgency to relay the knowledge to the Senate and the President as quickly as potential earlier than a nominee was chosen. I referred to as my congressional consultant and let her receptionist know that somebody on the President’s shortlist had attacked me. I additionally despatched a message to The Washington Submit’s confidential tip line. I didn’t use my identify, however I offered the names of Brett Kavanaugh and Mark Decide. I said that Mr. Kavanaugh had assaulted me within the 1980s in Maryland. This was a particularly onerous factor for me to do, however I felt I could not NOT do it. Over the subsequent two days, I informed a few shut pals on the seashore in California that Mr. Kavanaugh had sexually assaulted me. I used to be conflicted about whether or not to talk out.

On July 9, 2018, I acquired a name from the workplace of Congresswoman Anna Eshoo after Mr. Kavanaugh had develop into the nominee. I met together with her employees on July 11 and together with her on July 13, describing the assault and discussing my worry about coming ahead. Later, we mentioned the potential of sending a letter to Rating Member Feinstein, who’s one in every of my state’s Senators, describing what occurred. My understanding is that Consultant Eshoo’s workplace delivered a replica of my letter to Senator Feinstein’s workplace on July 30, 2018. The letter included my identify, however requested that the letter be stored confidential.

My hope was that offering the knowledge confidentially can be enough to permit the

Senate to think about Mr. Kavanaugh’s critical misconduct with out having to make myself, my household, or anybody’s household weak to the private assaults and invasions of privateness we now have confronted since my identify turned public. In a letter on August 31, 2018, Senator Feinstein wrote that she wouldn’t share the letter with out my consent. I enormously appreciated this dedication. All sexual assault victims ought to be capable of determine for themselves whether or not their personal expertise is made public.

Because the listening to date obtained nearer, I struggled with a horrible selection: Do I share the details with the Senate and put myself and my household within the public highlight? Or do I protect our privateness and permit the Senate to make its choice on Mr. Kavanaugh’s nomination with out figuring out the full fact about his previous conduct?

I agonized day by day with this choice all through August and early September 2018.
The sense of obligation that motivated me to succeed in out confidentially to The Washington Submit, Consultant Eshoo’s workplace, and Senator Feinstein’s workplace was all the time there, however my fears of the results of talking out began to extend.

Throughout August 2018, the press reported that Mr. Kavanaugh’s affirmation was nearly sure. His allies painted him as a champion of girls’s rights and empowerment. I believed that if I got here ahead, my voice can be drowned out by a refrain of highly effective supporters. By the point of the affirmation hearings, I had resigned myself to remaining quiet and letting the Committee and the Senate make their choice with out understanding what Mr. Kavanaugh had carried out to me.

As soon as the press began reporting on the existence of the letter I had despatched to Senator Feinstein, I confronted mounting strain. Reporters appeared at my residence and at my job demanding info about this letter, together with within the presence of my graduate college students. They referred to as my boss and coworkers and left me many messages, making it clear that my identify would inevitably be launched to the media. I made a decision to talk out publicly to a journalist who had responded to the tip I had despatched to The Washington Publish and who had gained my belief. It was necessary to me to explain the small print of the assault in my very own phrases.

Since September 16, the date of The Washington Submit story, I’ve skilled an outpouring of help from individuals in each state of this nation. Hundreds of people that have had their lives dramatically altered by sexual violence have reached out to share their very own experiences with me and have thanked me for coming ahead. We’ve got acquired large help from buddies and our group.

On the similar time, my biggest fears have been realized – and the truth has been far worse than what I anticipated. My household and I’ve been the goal of fixed harassment and dying threats. I’ve been referred to as probably the most vile and hateful names conceivable. These messages, whereas far fewer than the expressions of help, have been terrifying to obtain and have rocked me to my core. Individuals have posted my private info on the web. This has resulted in further emails, calls, and threats. My household and I have been pressured to maneuver out of our house. Since September 16, my household and I’ve been dwelling in numerous safe locales, with guards. This previous Tuesday night, my work e-mail account was hacked and messages have been despatched out supposedly recanting my description of the sexual assault.

Aside from the assault itself, these final couple of weeks have been the toughest of my life. I’ve needed to relive my trauma in entrance of the complete world, and have seen my life picked aside by individuals on tv, within the media, and on this physique who’ve by no means met me or spoken with me. I’ve been accused of appearing out of partisan political motives. Those that say that have no idea me. I’m a fiercely unbiased individual and I’m nobody’s pawn. My motivation in coming ahead was to offer the information about how Mr. Kavanaugh’s actions have broken my life, to be able to take that into critical consideration as you make your choice about easy methods to proceed. It isn’t my duty to find out whether or not Mr. Kavanaugh deserves to take a seat on the Supreme Courtroom. My duty is to inform the reality.

I perceive that the Majority has employed knowledgeable prosecutor to ask me some questions, and I’m dedicated to doing my best possible to reply them. On the similar time, as a result of the Committee Members shall be judging my credibility, I hope to have the ability to interact instantly with every of you.

At this level, I’ll do my greatest to reply your questions.

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